All the prejudiced opinions that I'd encountered as a young person were concentrated in this one place dressed up under the guise of this sort of pseudo science. Comment Report abuse. As Conley's website notes, over, Throughout high school, Conley hid his sexuality. 'Boy Erased': The True Story Behind The Film Garrard Conley's memoir of growing up as the gay son of a conservative Baptist preacher has been made … In fact, he expected to marry high school girlfriend of two years. I think that, if anything, I am becoming more myself than ever. Real Estate Awards Video VIP; Home; Film; News ; Nov 13, 2018 11:00am PT. The new Netflix film Mank centers on the making of Citizen Kane directed by and starring Orson Welles. I can only base my impressions on the film itself, but Conley stands by this rendering of his story. And then after you tell them, the group shames you, tells you that God will not let you live that way and then gives you a set of Bible verses to change you. I don't want to assault a child. And my mom said, well, I think we need to go home anyway and talk to dad. The film Boy Erased, out Nov. 2, tells the true story of a 19-year-old boy's time in a "gay conversion" program, the indignities and abuse of which he later wrote about. We didn't know what we were going to do. But the exploratory phase came with a terrible price: A new friend, called David in the book, raped Conley — then called his mother and outed him as gay. Think about that! CONLEY: Yeah. Not until his mother, Martha, intervened. Read more. And one night, this person that I knew raped me. And I stormed out. “Boy Erased is a gut-punch of a memoir, but the miracle of this book is the generosity with which Conley writes in an effort to understand the circumstances and motivations that led his family to seek the “cure”… his memoir is not simply a story of survival — in this book, a true writer comes of age. And she said to them, I don't know why I've never asked this, but what are your qualifications? Boy Erased is set to hit theaters on Nov. 2, but before you see the film, here's everything you need to know about the true story behind its powerful message. I said, well, it's not true. NPR transcripts are created on a rush deadline by Verb8tm, Inc., an NPR contractor, and produced using a proprietary transcription process developed with NPR. How are you? And this is where I want to say that, first of all, this practice of convergence - I think many people now will have heard of this because this practice has actually been banned in a number of states. Boy Erased is an agonising story. I was dating a girl at the time, and no one knew that I was struggling with my sexuality or coming to terms with it. Boy Erased by Garrard Conley is available now. And I said, yes. Helpful. I was - I mean, this person's identity has to be protected for legal reasons. And I called my mom. Garrard Conley, thank you so much for joining us. If anything, it feels like it's giving me a purpose in life. And he's with us now from NPR's bureau in New York. I recently experienced the exquisitely painful movie, ‘Boy Erased.’ The film dramatizes the real-life odyssey of Garrard Conley, the son of a pastor couple who struggles with same-sex attraction. Boy Erased: A Memoir of Identity, Faith, and Family by Garrard Conley (Riverhead): Growing up the son of a Baptist preacher in small-town Arkansas is tough on any kid, but for one struggling with his sexuality, it can be traumatic. And when dad took me into his bedroom and closed the door, he said, do you swear to God that you're not gay? LIA was structured around a 12-step program, like the one found in Alcoholics Anonymous. And she said, are you going to kill yourself? Explore cast information, synopsis and more. CONLEY: I'm not talking from inside Love in Action. CONLEY: Sure. Starring Nicole Kidman, Russell Crowe and Lucas Hedges, “Boy Erased” is based on the real-life story of a teen who must choose between his religious family and his true identity. Jared's parents love him deeply, though in different ways. Yet, in “faith” to God, the Eamons family allows trauma to enter their once happy, healthy home. This is an amazing and challenging memoir that throws you right into the fray from page one. It's a terrible tension, and the movie poignantly depicts the soul-wrenching struggle Jared faces as he tries to reconcile these warring desires, beliefs and relationships. CONLEY: Yes, the Missionary Baptists. Boy Erased is the book for our times -- an important book, and a true companion." MARTIN: That's Garrard Conley. And I also want to point out that the practice has been rejected by the American Psychological Association, the American Medical Association. Visit our website terms of use and permissions pages at www.npr.org for further information. I'll try to do it in a way that's not too triggering for people. 'Boy Erased' does a wonderful job of explaining the Southern evangelical mindset and the social pressures to conform. But I still find myself worrying about you. Lucas Hedges (left), Russell Crowe and Nicole Kidman as the family at the heart of “Boy Erased.” Photo: Focus Features “I feel like every movie is about a family dynamic,” Lucas Hedges says. And he called some pastors at the Bellevue Baptist Church in Memphis, Tenn., which is a big mega church. Now that memoir has been made into a movie, so we thought this would be a good time to speak with Garrard Conley about the real story behind the film. Boy Erased’s writer/director Joel Edgerton was first drawn to Garrard Conley’s powerful memoir by its focus on the family. But I also grew up in a Christian household where the idea was you try to help other people become more compassionate. Boy Erased: A Memoir is a 2016 memoir by Garrard Conley recounting his childhood in a fundamentalist Arkansas family that enrolled him in conversion therapy.According to The Week, it aims to bridge the cultural divide—"one that makes gay conversion therapy seem a natural choice in some places and unfathomable in others". As Conley explained in an interview with, And there wasn't. And he said, did it work? And because of that, that was one of the leading factors why I agreed to go into conversion therapy because I thought I'm not that. he details in his memoir, or that after the first 100 or so pages that the powerful and affecting narrative sort of frustratingly jumps the tracks for awhile. MARTIN: And now I'm going to go and ask you to try to describe as sensitively as you can this extremely traumatic experience that you had in college. The film begins with childhood videos of a sweet, innocent boy (real life footage of the film's star Lucas Hedges). This text may not be in its final form and may be updated or revised in the future. Écoutez Boy Erased (Original Motion Picture Soundtrack) par Danny Bensi sur Deezer. Fortunately, Mr. Conley's exposure to other people and beliefs at college opened his eyes to more critical thinking skills and, ultimately, emancipation. And the only thing that was swirling around in my mind after that was this really harmful idea I had encountered in childhood which was that all LGBTQ people were somehow predators. MARTIN: Can you describe what it is about this experience that pushed you to the brink? So that person, when I told what he'd done to a few friends, he retaliated by calling my mom. But after he was outed to his conservative Christian parents - we'll talk about how that happened a little later - he went through an intense, even brutal course of therapy that pushed him to the brink of suicide. It is brutally honest and, at times, very hard to read but it is definitely a memoir to add to your reading list. Boy Erased (2018) Plot. I mean, imagine entering a place for the first time with a group of people you've never met who are all feeling shameful. It is brutally honest and, at times, very hard to read but it is definitely a memoir to add to your reading list. And he told her that I had confessed that I was gay. Because she'd heard stories about people committing suicide there. nolly. I mean, I'm talking to you, and you sound great. Synopsis. MARTIN: Wow. So, I thought, 'Well, there's just this sex thing — what does that matter?'" Avec la musique en streaming sur Deezer, découvrez plus de 56 millions de titres, créez gratuitement vos propres playlists, explorez des genres différents et partagez vos titres préférés avec vos amis. Boy Erased by Garrard Conley is available now. I hope someone does. But they also believed that people dealing with bestiality and pedophilia and marriage issues were also welcome to change their addictive state, as they called it. Boy Erased is a 2018 American biographical drama film based on Garrard Conley's 2016 memoir of the same name.It is written and directed by Joel Edgerton, who also produced with Kerry Kohansky Roberts and Steve Golin.The film stars Lucas Hedges, Nicole Kidman, Russell Crowe, and Edgerton, and follows the son of Baptist parents who is forced to take part in a gay conversion therapy program. We are taking “home theater” to a whole new level: Every Thursday at 5 p.m. image caption Boy Erased stars (left-right) Lucas Hedges, Joel Edgerton, Troye Sivan and Nicole Kidman The film is insightful for anyone who has ever wondered what kind of methods might be used. Hannah Paine news.com.au July 22, 2018 1:18pm You know, many people think of this is something people are forced to undergo, but you actually decided to go. They're - I consider them to be fundamentalists. I was doing this exercise called the lie chair. And they told me to yell at him and say how much I hated him. Yet, Boy Erased shows the plain idiocy of allowing darkness to disrupt your life. Back in 2004, Garrard Conley was like a lot of college students. BOY ERASED is well-acted, written and edited, with fine performances from the leading cast. “Boy Erased is a gut-punch of a memoir, but the miracle of this book is the generosity with which Conley writes in an effort to understand the circumstances and motivations that led his family to seek the “cure”… his memoir is not simply a story of survival — in this book, a true writer comes of age. The authoritative record of NPR’s programming is the audio record. MARTIN: It's now estimated that some 700,000 people have been subjected to this. And she said, well, no. But she pulled over because I was losing it. It was adapted into the 2018 film Boy Erased You grew up in this very conservative household adherent to, I think it's fair to say, a very conservative branch of Christianity, very literal. MARTIN: So let's get into the story a bit. And why do you think your mom listened to you? All rights reserved. It couldn't be about hate. It takes immense courage to buck against your tribe's groupthink. And we all swept it under the rug for about 10 years. I mean, you sound amazing. With ‘Boy Erased’ and ‘Cameron Post,’ Hollywood Exposes Conversion Therapy (Guest Column) By Mathew Shurka. Garrard Conley has spent much of his adult life raising awareness about the horrors of gay conversion therapy. I mean, how are you now? And the pastors there hooked him with a place called Love in Action which was a conversion therapy facility designed to turn LGBTQ kids straight. 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